Mommies wear diapers TOO!!!!
Jan 22, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ATSg6-e-qbA

only big girls wear panties babies wear
diapers you look at me Mommy wear diaper
Mike yeah you're only two
don't get cocky with me clothes and told
that old fellow you said you were proud
of me on my way to counseling it is
freezing out actually running a little
bit behind I went last night and I don't
know what I was thinking but I went and
I cleared out some of my pictures
because I'm like just trying not to roll
my window down like a che
I went I cleared out my some of my
pictures because I just don't want to
like overload it like I did before and
then get stuck where I have like a multi
amount of pictures and running out of
room so I went and erased some of my
pictures well yeah there went my intro
to my video so I have been working on
that trying to get that done because I
can't believe I do that so anyway so
that's what I've been working on this
morning since I've been up and I woke up
with one of those really bad headaches
and I don't know why like one of those
thumping ones and I've taken a 600
milligram IV Program and I still have it
so I'm hoping it will subside I can feel
my face pretty warm so I'm I've been
checking my blood pressure my blood
pressures been like actually perfect
which is
a nice feeling
which is a nice feeling
to have my blood pressure not be high
but I don't know why I woke up like this
like I am just feeling like nah I mean I
feel fine but I just have that really
bad headache that's just like wow I
don't know what is carrying in my brain
but it's a it's a 13 anyways so I have
my counseling this morning and then from
there I don't know if I'm going to go
back home we pick up everybody or if I'm
going to go straight to Walmart but I
need to go to Walmart I have to get some
stuff done today and Walmart is one of
my Musk's so I've got that to do and
then I have got back-to-back orders back
to back orders for quite a few people so
I am going to work on that today which
probably have about I say about four to
five hours worth of work ahead of me
today so yes I have to work today we
like working um I think I'm gonna work
on a work schedule something that you
know we'll talk more in depth about
today there's something I think I'm
gonna start here on the on this channel
too
but you know something I was thinking
about last night and my headache could
be too because my brain was like on
overload last night
I just could not turn my brain off for
absolutely nothing
just thinking about different thoughts
and ideas and all those good things but
anyways one that I was thinking about
was you know I think that I need to make
a schedule for myself and what I mean by
that is you know yes I am a stay-at-home
mom but now I am also not only just a
stay-at-home mom but I work two full
time jobs along with being a
stay-at-home mom and I love it I love my
jobs all of them
but I think in order to be able to be
present at all of my jobs I need to make
a schedule and what I mean by that is
it's very easy and I think this happens
with probably many stay-at-home moms
it's very easy to just get up in the
morning and get busy with kids with
whatever's going on in the house and you
forget to take about take care of
yourself taking a shower doing what you
need to do to get you know your skin
routine cared for and all of those
things because you know you get busy
with your kids and you get busy with
life and not to include you have
businesses as well that you're trying to
focus on and you know and so I've
noticed the last probably three weeks
really close it is I noticed that when I
get up in the morning I can almost go
all day before I realized that a I
probably have only taken one to two like
pee breaks no joke - I couldn't tell you
if I drink much water or anything all
day long because I'm just go go go and
forget to do it three nine out of ten
I'm not even I don't even get my shower
in until nighttime
and that leads me to pretty much being
hang out pajama clothes all day long
which is great sometimes but I need a
schedule so that I know that I am also
meeting my own me because if I'm not
taking care of myself I can't take care
of everything else you know and there's
a saying that I learned over the weekend
I've never heard of it I'm sure others
have but you cannot pour a glass you
know like you can't pour yourself with
an empty glass like you cannot pour into
another glass if it's empty
and that's so so so true in so many ways
because that's exactly how sometimes I
feel like I feel so empty sometimes and
I feel defeated and I feel like I'm not
reaching my goals that I'm wanting
because I just I stay focused on so many
things that when it becomes the end of
the day and I ask myself all the
questions that I asked myself every
night you know did you do this did you
do that how did you do it you know and I
go down the list 9 out of 10 I'm saying
no to all the things that I needed to do
for myself and I've noticed you know
that my skin's been a little bit more
rougher you know
my lips have been a little bit more
rougher just little things little things
but little things add up to big things
and so it's really where I'm working
right now in in my scheduling is making
sure that I am taking some time for me
and I'm not talking like mommy date day
or anything like that like I'm saying
every day I need to get up take my
shower do my skin routine do what I need
to do for myself so that I can be
present for my kids and for my family
and for myself and for my businesses all
together the whole time and and not use
every you know every day to be just
about what I need to get done for
everything else but not me
so that's just one thing that I really
I'm really gonna focus more harder on is
just making a schedule making a schedule
for my work schedule making a schedule
for me in the mornings making a schedule
for my kids you know I think that that
also is a big thing too is you know
sometimes kids work better when you
really put your kids work better
sometimes when there's a schedule and I
think my kids are just one of those type
of kids they do really good if there is
a schedule but when they don't know what
what's going on from day to day and
we're just throwing nuggets out there
each and every time it's just like one
of those
what do you want to say it it's just
they don't know what they're expected to
do just like some days I wake up and I
don't know what I'm expected to do so I
think I'm gonna really work on schedules
for my whole family but a lot of it is
gonna be about me and making schedules
for things that I need to schedule every
day into into my days for myself so that
is something that I'm gonna really work
on you know not not put yourself on a
pedestal but put yourself up there in
the ranks you know you're just as
important as everybody else and you know
if you're not taking care of yourself
then you are not gonna be available to
help with anything else because you're
gonna feel run down and I think that
that's were just mentally I'm at right
now is I just feel so ran down in it's
because I'm not taking care of me and
that is a big big big big thing with me
because I never do I always make sure
that I'm last on majority of things
because it just that's how it works and
that's the same with Ollie Ollie's the
same way he will put himself behind
everybody else you know he'll make sure
that me and the kids have before he even
touches anything just because that's
that's him and that's the same with me
and so we both do that and you know and
that's good in some aspects so sometimes
that's not good because then you just
start running down and I know that
that's where my husband's out right now
he just looks so tired and so like just
emotionally drained and it concerns me
and really thinking about it now it's
almost like you know I'm seeing it I'm
seeing exactly what I feel for myself I
see that with him that he's the same way
he will do and do and do but he'll
forget about himself and so he'll be
back here pushing everybody forward and
he's just drained so yeah I think that
that's something we're
work on in our household you know making
schedules for the kids and just yeah
we're gonna buy a schedule for a while
so anyways I am here at counseling I
have about five minutes to go in and
start my session so I think I'm going to
go in and edit a little bit of my video
it's probably to go up a little bit
later I know but it Monday's are kind of
a day because I have encounter sting in
the morning and I don't have chance to
edit or anything until until I usually
get out and then I have to put it up so
I am gonna go and work on that for a few
minutes before I have to go in and then
I will check in with you guys when I get
out hey guys so I am just checking in
with you guys really quick we are on our
way to go and do what we needed to get
done which one was definitely go to
Walmart and then I didn't know we have
anything else to do but I do have a call
in to my doctors because this morning I
noticed that my back was really kind of
hurting me on my left side and hey I
just chose to kind of ignore it because
I dunno but anyways and I've noticed
that it keeps it's increasingly getting
worse and worse and I just feel like
blah like just not feeling a hundred
percent so I am
calling the doctors to see if I can go
ahead and come on in and get a UA done
so that way they can check if I have a
kidney infection I kind of roll in that
direction because I know what it feels
like but it's pretty painful so when I
came home today I just kind of laid low
and caught up on some of my messages and
emails and I got one showdown I think
that was it I mean all he did some
talking and yeah just been kind of
relaxing so anyways I just want to check
in with you guys and say that i am alive
and well from when you guys see me this
morning and i will keep you guys updated
when the doctor calls so because i
called i was like can I just go in to
Urgent Care and they're like well if you
go into Urgent Care they're gonna want
you to see a physician I'm like no I
really don't feel like sitting there all
day today so she's like well we can get
a message back to your doctor and have
them just go ahead and order one and
that way you could just come in and do
the tests I'm like yeah but that's the
route I want to go so now I'm just
waiting for them to calm let me know
that he ordered it so anyways I will
keep you guys updated oh my gosh look at
my shirt okay see it
Amy's life journey Yotam loving it
okay now we are not we I am on my way to
my doctor's because my nurse called me
and said that no he definitely wants me
to come in
still been hurting really bad so in fact
when we went to Walmart today I had to
go on a cart that's how bad my back is
hurting me and it's been a long shot
since I have had to actually result to
one of those but it was like every time
I was like moving and stuff it was
hurting so I am on my way to them and he
just gets really concerned because I've
had serious issues with kidney stones
and sometimes my body just can't pass
them and it puts me in immense pain and
I mean today it's like I would be really
surprised if it comes back that I didn't
have a kidney infection
I'm almost 99% sure I have one but you
don't know that 1% until you go in and
get checked so I am hoping that they get
the results quickly
so I can start my medicine cos I just
don't have time to be sick I really
don't so anyways I got everything I
needed from Walmart we got some more I
was gonna show you guys but then because
I had to run out the door I'm just like
okay nevermind I got more from raw
vegetables because that's what I wanted
and I was completely out because Omer
and Esther when I make those like they
literally will down them with me so I
got three that they had a Walmart they
had these containers like plastic
containers but they were like 258 you
could probably get two servings from
them and when I say two servings because
I can sit in Iraq vegetables like a mill
so if you're eating them like a mill
open pretty much then technically you're
only gonna get the one serving because
they're you know I mean they're
individuals but anyways so I went ahead
and I went and I looked for the bags and
they had bags of the raw vegetables but
I got the smaller bags so that they
don't go bad before we eat them all they
had bigger bags that were like 5 by 60 I
want to say it was that mean a fairly
good sized bag but I just didn't I don't
want to buy anything anymore that I'm
not for sure if we're gonna be able to
finish it all off too
and we're gonna start trying to find
something to do twice a week with Omar
Nasser on whether it be take them to the
bounce house place where there's like a
huge like like a huge factory area like
a big factory room and it's full of like
bounce houses like all different types
of bounce houses so I told Holly I'm
like maybe wouldn't you know one day we
can take them there and then another day
we can take them to the trampoline place
or I really am not too keen on
chuck-e-cheese and reason being for that
is because I mean and I haven't been
there in like three years so I really
can't speak too much of volumes about it
but when I used to be there I felt like
every time we went Jeremiah would get
sick and we would have a big fiasco of
sicknesses and you know that's
understandable because you're going to a
place where you know possibly that could
be what happens but if it's during the
week cuz like I explained to ollie Maya
Jeremiah gets out every day through the
week when he has school so he doesn't
need it that that his getting out of the
house isn't as important to me in the
sense that he does get out he gets to go
and play with friends and he gets to
have an interaction where awareness or
don't get that they really don't so for
me it's like no I need them to have that
so I also you know we also talked about
as the weather gets better we are gonna
start taking all the kids on the
weekends to the park and you know
because I told him I said you know
they're just bored you know they're
downright just bored you know they're
either stuck in the house or stuck in
the car like what any four and
three-year-old is gonna want to do that
and so there is gonna be some major
changes on that part that the kids are
gonna get out and they are gonna start
moving and they are going to
doing so because I think that that's
gonna really help them and not just them
but it's gonna help us because you know
if we go to the park well I can walk the
trap while always sitting there watching
the kids for a little bit you know when
letting them play and have fun and you
know all of those things and then when I
get done walking away can go and walk
the truck well I watch the kids play I'm
not gonna make the kids walk the track
because what fun is that you know
they're gonna want to play on the toys
and stuff and I want my kids to play on
the toys there's a few a few parks that
I've been checking out that actually
seem pretty nice and they're in really
nice neighborhoods so I'm just going to
keep an eye on them and you know if
they're not ones that are you know
constantly
you know constantly full of people and
you know stuff like that I will
definitely take that as a consideration
of all taking my kids to that park but
I'm really excited to definitely be able
to start doing stuff with the little
ones and then as you know summer comes
up and stuff of course mines can be home
and you know and then of course we'll do
things with my home - I'm not trying to
exclude him at all but he does get out
on the weekends with his friends he does
go to school he does do those things and
he does get one-on-one time with me and
oli at different times though babies
they really don't they don't get much
time out of the house other than when
they're stuck in the car and I just you
know I think that that is gonna
immensely help with us and our
frustration of the kids behaving the way
that they do is I think because they're
finally gonna use some of their energy
that they've got bottled up and we'll be
able to let it out so those are just
some things that we were talking about
and I think it's gonna really help but
you know like I told ollie is for me
having a schedule will help me so much
in the sense that you know
I'm not all about having to put makeup
on and all of those things I mean I'm
really not if I'm gonna go somewhere
really nice which we rarely do you know
go somewhere where it's just adults
because we don't leave our kids anywhere
okay so yes they got the results back
like immediately and he was like oh yeah
actually her teen the way that I Anna
makes a lot of sense so anyways he sent
in some antibiotics sorry I'm trying to
get in the car he is sending in an
antibiotic which I won't be able to
start until tomorrow because my pharmacy
is gonna be closed so okay and then I
have another appointment with him well
it will technically be almost like I'm
meeting two appointments in one because
I have my follow-up from this one and
then also my med check so and then the
following day I have my appointment with
Jeremiah so yeah I get to live here
twice well if I take him I don't know
usually only takes Maya because it's
like a boy thing you know one of those
things it's the physical so daddy will
probably take him although my son likes
to come and talk to me about his boy
problems and I'm like son I'm mom I'm
not supposed to know these things
don't tell me but I mean I guess cuz
that's just the relationship that I have
made with him is that he's very very
comfortable to talk to me about stuff so
he will literally just talk to me about
anything and he's so open which makes me
feel good though I am so happy that I
have you know created that closeness
with him and that bond with him that he
doesn't feel shy to come and talk to me
and tell me the things that are going on
with either his body or feelings or
whatever's going on
he always feels so comfort and so I'm so
grateful for that that makes me feel
good as a mom I love ya know I don't
stop him I don't want him to ever feel
like him coming and talking to me as a
bad thing because you know my mom hello
cool but I mom you know and I know some
people like are more you know what do
you call it like I don't know how to how
to say it like they're more conservative
but me I am a very opened person like
I'm not shy about things especially when
it comes with my kids I am very open not
in a bad sexual way
but I always want my children to feel
comfortable with their bodies with you
know acceptance of change and you know
things like that and so I'm very open
with them and we I talk very freely you
know Ali was more raised I will say he
was more raised conservative so like for
him it's almost a little bit like whoa
you know but for me I was raised more of
the opposite you know I was raised with
my family's very open about stuff like
that you know so for us it wasn't as a
shy thing and I don't want my children
to ever be raised where it's a shy thing
or where it's
you know I mean yeah I understand that
there's a part where you want to teach
your children you know there's some
things that maybe you PI should talk to
your dad about but we live in the 20th
century we don't live in 1900 so those
things get talked about and more or less
they learn half of the crap on TV if
they have a chance to watch you know TV
and just song commercials alone they
talk about periods and everything else
so of course you know you've got a
ten-year-old watching a commercial mom
was I know I'm like that's called a
mommy band-aid
my kids know well it was on mommy
band-aid sorry let me back that up it
was called a mommy diaper my daughter
even knows about the mommy diaper
there's been a few times where she'll be
like mommy I go get you a mummy diaper
I'm just like daughter I love you she's
gonna grow up and tell her friends I
wear a mommy diaper
do you wear mommy diaper yeah that was
real fun trying to potty train her with
the diaper thing because I would tell
her only big girls wear panties babies
wear diapers she look at me Mommy wear
diaper like yeah you're only two don't
get dunkey don't get cocky with me um
anyways I am on my way to go home
Ollie is at home cooking some dinner and
then with my weight they weighed me and
according to their scale so I don't go
by their scale because I only go off of
my home scale and I do that just because
my doctor said do not go off of more
than one scale so I do not go off more
than my one skill but according to his
skill though from the time last time I
was here so it's only been two times you
guys that I have been able to weigh on
the doctor scale and it actually pick up
which is really exciting
but anyways they I'm down eight pounds
from the last time I seen him and that
was I'm gonna say like less than a month
ago I was here so yeah but anyways but
that doesn't any of the numbers that
show today I don't hold those because
like I said I don't count any other
scale but my home scale same with my
doctor he weighs me but we also log my
home scale weight because that's
technically the scale that I go off of
so anyhoo now I am on my way home and I
got so many questions on my shirt
they're like what's not your shirt and
I'm like oh it's my channel oh my god
give me your name I gotta subscribe you
were awesome I just been watching like
oh thank you so it was kind of nice I I
made this a few weeks oh well I made it
cuz we were gonna do we were gonna do a
thousand subscriber celebration video
and my husband we were gonna do it for
two days a couple weeks weekends ago we
were gonna do it and every day that we
were gonna do it something happened we
couldn't finally I was like you know I
am sick of watching those shirts just
sitting there forget it I'm wearing my
shirt so I put my shirt on and I made
the kids shirt they're so cute it says
oh my gosh what is there say
something to the effect of ear I'm the
one that made it I can hear I remember
what he put on it
oh I'm famous on YouTube because of my
mommy and then on the back of it it has
my channel so yeah it's so far it's the
opposite maybe it's I think it's Amy's
life journey on the front and then on
the back it says I am famous on YouTube
because of my mommy
but yeah I'm I'm loving it I'm loving
much I need to make one for Olli this is
I'm famous on YouTube because of my
crazy wife but my question to you guys
is so I'm gonna switch my day though to
the 26th of January and I'm gonna go at
5 p.m. but my question is should I just
do the live and know vlog on Saturday or
do you guys want the vlog and alive on
Saturday let me know because if I don't
do a vlog on Saturday then I don't need
to do any vlogging on Friday and I would
just take that day off but I really hate
taking days off so yes I know it's world
problems
oh and Jodie look look what's out this
is the purse that Jodie talks about all
the time on my messenger the messenger
all my comments this thing is the most
amazing purse I absolutely love it I've
had it for about a year but I stopped
using it right about the end of summer
time and I went into a different person
than I've went into multiple persistence
then because I love purses I love person
I can never use a purse for a long time
like I'm not one of those people that
could buy a person use it for like 15
years like absolutely not it just
doesn't happen but this one it's and
actually it's a diaper bag that's what
it is and it was a backpack but I don't
like the backpack strap so I just took
those off and I just used it like a
purse but it's got multiple slots it's
got a it's got a pocket here it's got a
pocket here it has a pocket here
here and here oh my gosh this thing is
amazing I absolutely love it and I like
put like my phone and my keys and stuff
in there and whatever but yeah this is
like my ultimate favorite purse at this
point you know because like I said I
changed person's all the time but
anyways I jumped off of that subject Oh
cuz I was talking about carrying my
purse around or my calendar around but
anywho what else oh just because again a
few people asked so I am reconfirming
that I updated everything on my on my
Amazon wishlist um a few people told me
I needed to add some more stuff to it so
I'm trying I'm trying I was told to add
some stuff for all either like where's
your husband's I'm like he won't tell me
what he wants so I will add some more
things for him I promise I'm just this
is so weird for me I think it is this so
weird because I'm just not used to it
although I'm so appreciative and it
makes me feel good to get little gifts
and things but I'm so not used to it so
to like come up with like this list I
was like what is a wishlist like what am
I supposed to put on there like just put
things that you would not that you would
like but that you would not technically
buy for yourself and I'm like okay okay
what's the price range here and they're
like you just put whatever and if
somebody wants to buy it for you they
will and if they don't want to buy it
for you they don't have to but at least
you just put what out there what am i
friends she's like I was shocked she
goes I put a air fryer on there thinking
that you know it was just something that
I put on my list and somebody bought it
for me like I was shocked I'm like oh my
gosh like I wouldn't have mattered
probably fall over dead um anyways so I
just I mean I did add a few like purses
because I love things like that so I'm
trying and I'm gonna keep trying to add
things just to give ideas of things that
you guys can buy but yeah anyways okay
I'm gonna go in the house I am gonna go
in eat some dinner I'm gonna go take a
hot shower because my back is killing me
and I'm probably gonna hit the hay quite
early because I just like I said today I
just been feeling blah all day and it's
clearly because I have an infection so
gotta keep a smiley face no honestly I'm
okay I mean I'm in a lot of pain but you
know it's its life how could you how
could you kill it any differently
anyways
all right you guys I'm gonna close I
hope you guys enjoy today I really hope
you enjoyed following me around all over
the crazy Salem OR Guinean out but I
will check in with you guys tomorrow I
don't have anything on my schedule so I
don't know exactly but like I said
tonight hopefully maybe me and all
you're gonna sit down and make a
schedule so that'll be really fun to
kind of go over with you guys anyways I
will check in with you guys tomorrow
bright and shiny in the morning and tell
them sweet dreams
